believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Psalm 27:13
On November 3rd at 6:15 in the morning my husband dropped dead- literally- right there in the shower. He had not been in good health, was depressed and had refused to take care of himself. I knew we were headed down this road of stroke and feared the results – that he would live disabled. He was not the type of man who would have slid downhill graciously. So, instead, God touched his brain and it exploded. It exploded into life- life without fear, pain, depression, illness and sin. It has also given me life- life without fear of the future, the intense pain I felt for him, being the brunt of his depressive moods, dealing with his illness that so house-bounded him outside of getting up the gumption to go to work every day, and the sin he carried that shut so many doors to our marriage.
My husband fought many enemies in his life, from cruelly abusive parents to the Viet Cong, to economic hardships, to his own personal demons. Now, he is free. The Son has set him free. I truly believe all is well with his soul, as the hymn says. I have faith that when he looked upon the face of His Savior that he learned to believe about as a child, my husband finally accepted Him as his salvation, his peace and his Lord. In the midst of my sorrow, I feel that peace. God has surrounded me with friends and support. My shackles have been released and at last, knowing my husband now finally, truly lives, I can dance.
