But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress. O my Strength, I will sing praises to you,for you, O God, are my fortress,the God who shows me steadfast love. Psalm 59:16-17
This morning I can sing. (Well- perhaps only in the confines of my heart- I never did have the gift of an angelic voice. The people who sit near me in Church are very loving, long suffering and understanding!) Still- today I sing praises.
Yesterday? That was very, very different. I was in a deep low. I cried while folding the laundry and hanging up the clothes from the dyer. I let some deep doubting questions about where I was and what I was doing bubble up to the surface with my tearful gulps. I had been trying to lose weight and had hit a plateau- even gained. Everyone else in the program was melting it off. Why did it always have to be hard for me? I had hit an impasse in my writing and been rejected by yet another agent. I was unsure if what I was writing was really any good and if I should still pursue this. I was having a bad hair day-again. On top of that I was feeling queasy. My back ached. Yeah- I had a real pity party. The floodgates opened. “Lord give me strength!”
This morning I was down 3 pounds overnight.That, believe me, is a miracle right there. I have the metabolism of a flea. As I looked out the window, I saw a hummingbird come to our feeder. They are my favorite bird but we haven’t been able to attract them to this house, but I still put out the sugar water this time of year, just in case. Then I go to my computer and read a sweet note from a blogger and another from a new client of mine — one I freelance write for as my day job.
Thank you Lord not only for these three small blessings, but for being a God who cares so much that He knows how much these little things comforted me. The Lord of the Universe took the time to benddown to give me three reminders of His steadfast love. Thank you for confirming that I am in Your will and boosting my faith while yet again humbling me in my moment of weakness. Your love in incomprehensible. I do not derseve Your love, but graciously receive it. This morning, You have put a song in my heart. You were my refuge in my distress and always will be my fortress to lean on. You are greatly to be praised. Amen.
