“They left that place and passed through Galilee. Jesus…was teaching his disciples. .. But they did not understand what he meant and were afraid to ask him about it.” Mark 9:30-32
Do you recall a time in class when what the teacher was saying just didn’t sink in but you were too self-conscious to raise your hand and ask them to explain? Perhaps you didn’t want to be laughed at, or you were afraid the kids you were trying to impress might think you were stupid. Maybe you were shy, or so lost you didn’t even know what question to ask. Perhaps more recent than that you were in a meeting, or heard something in Church and you had a question about what was said, but were too timid to ask.
When we are in a crowd of people, it is hard not to be self-conscious of what they might think. But the disciples had lived, traveled, ate, and witnessed miracles together. They had been in the presence of Jesus throughout Galilee and seen Him heal the sick, even raise the dead. They had heard Him teach over and over again. Yet they still were not comfortable in His presence. They did not trust each other very much because in the very next passage they fight over who is the greatest- the Teacher’s pet. Petty jealousies, self consciousness and fear clouded them from receiving God’s blessings.
Let’s not be like that. Let’s learn from their examples. I think that is why the story is here. We need to never be afraid to go to our Lord and ask when we do not understand. He is a Big God, he can handle it. He loves us so very much and wants the best for us. He sent His Son to die for us and His Spirit to instruct and guide us.
He will always take time to draw near, lend an ear, dry a tear and relieve your fear.
Heavenly Father, we draw near today, not relying on our own understanding but seeking Your wisdom. Jesus said whatever it is we ask in His name you will grant it. Let us come boldly before the throne as beloved children and seek answers when we just do not get what is happening in our lives. Then, let us humbly receive the answer as Truth given in love. Amen.
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” Matthew 21:22